Nostalgia can be utterly be heartbreaking. I personally hate the feeling I get when I think of great things that used to be a part of my life which are no longer with me. This can especially be true of an amazing and beautiful past relationship.
Why do we always end up not being with the person that we most desperately wanted to be with?
When I had lost my love, I was full of anguish and disbelief when it happened. I couldn't believe my eyes and my ears.
When my relationship failed, I wanted to bring back my beloved, as I felt deep in my heart that we should be together. But I did not know what went wrong and why things happened the way they did!
The heartache and pain I went through could literally tear me apart!!!!!
The heartache and pain I went through could literally tear me apart!!!!!
With the passage of time, I learnt to live without her albeit deep down, I wished always to hold her again, to kiss her again, to make love with absolute abandon pleasure. I became stupidly eccentric in my behaviour. Her non-existence in my life was turning me into a loner. I needed help. I needed councelling. I needed someone to sit across me, talk to me and force me for one final cry. It never happened and I trudged along never really being aware of the fact that I still loved her..
And then it happened.. Years of separation ceased.. A simple hi indemnified the loss of years..
Today I am happy again. I have extended a warm invitation to life to become my friend once more.. Whoever said, 'of all the 36 alternatives, running away is the best' should come and look at my life.. Had I run away from the inherent desire in me to find her again, I would have been bereft of happiness today..
Wish for something hard and it will come true..
Stay safe people.. Until me meet again..
Cheers
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